Some days you wish they never happened.

While some days you wish they never ended.

Some days you don’t remember at all.

While for some days you wish your whole life orbits around.

Some days call for your attention.

While some days your attention calls for you.

The days I look forward to are nothing compared to the days leading to that day.

The day of happening is when the peak of excitement is coming to an end.

The expectations of the event are more joyful than the event itself.

The prebuilt excitement fills your soul with joy and your body bursts from anticipation.

You are experiencing the true ecstasy.

The most sorrowful days are the days that last eternity because of the grief you are living in. These days are the days of true misery.

It’s a tiny line that separates bliss from despair.

I am never alone if I am with God.

But there is one difference between being with God and being with humans.

When I am with God I am at peace.

When I am spending too much time with humans I become chaotic.

I seek solitary time.

But when I am for too long without other humans my soul languishes.

Fade.

Fall away…

I am not myself without human connection.

Also, I am not myself when I am too connected.

We humans are truly complex beings.

We can’t survive on our own but when over-engaged with the herd we become reactive.

The optimal human is the human who knows what minimal time he needs on his own so that he can be of the best service to himself, his family, and society.

The formula for a happy life is balancing your solitary time and the union with other human beings. One without another cannot exist.

My best living happens in the moments of solitude and devoted work.

Devotion to your craft is the salvation of your soul.

I don’t write that much these days. Why?

I got in a rut.

I don’t create space for solitude and focus.

When I am in the zone and peaceful I am a prolific writer and business owner.

I am noticing a pattern of letting myself down with insecurity and negative thoughts.

How am I planning to reach entitlement if I am sabotaging myself?

There will always be plenty of enemies to sabotage you, at least I can rid of self-sabotage. I don’t have to be my biggest enemy.

I enjoy being in a working flow more than anything.

Steven Presfield is right. Once you break out resistance I feel like I am not in control of my body and my creativity. It just pours out of me.

God thank you for moments like this I am endlessly grateful.

Love you and surrender to you,

Your Angela <3