I dedicate more attention to writing my personal journal than the average person. Sometimes, my journaling is just a couple of short reminders to myself. Other times, it’s a strong urge to document a full download—something I often don’t fully understand in the moment, can’t fully grasp, or am not even consciously aware of at the time.
Even though nobody was reading my newsletter, I wrote online to break the fear of public judgment. I had a couple of best friends subscribed, and I decided to put the link to my Substack publicly in my Instagram bio. This might sound silly to you, but being public about my writing was a big, stressful moment for me, since English is not my native language, and AI wasn’t as popular back then to help enhance my writing. In some sense, I felt exposed, naked. Suddenly, everyone had access to my mind, not just the highlighted photos on my social media. You got the opportunity to combine body with mind and soul, a chance to experience the depth of my being and decide if you like it or not.
When I analyzed my posts, they were so random. Some were too personal, and some don’t even make sense to me anymore. There was no deeper meaning behind them, no big goal or mission they were leading toward. It was just writing for the sake of writing.
But everything changed recently. I felt called to go back to public writing, but not the kind I used to do. Not the one just for myself. This time, I felt the invitation to write for the bigger masses.
When I pondered this new calling, I couldn’t clearly see who I was being called to write to. Then I realized—the people I will be writing to are my stakeholders.
Wait, what!? My stakeholders? But Angela, you don’t even have a company to run, let alone stakeholders!
I know. It doesn’t make rational sense to me either. But I’m allowing my life’s task to unfold without resisting it.
I feel like a company going public—moving from private markets to public ones. Certain changes are required, and I feel called to make them.
We are entering the new era of Angela’s writing:
Transition from writing Privately to Publicly.
Transition from writing to One person to writing to Many.
Transition from writing Randomly to writing Purposefully.
Looking back, I’m glad I wrote in any capacity. It made me confront my fear of being judged and disliked. I realized there was a child inside me who wanted to be accepted so badly—and that leaking energy was stopping me from embodying my truth in fullness, from stepping into my mature, whole self. And since my entire life is centered around the pursuit of truth, I realized: there is no way around. There is no other way.
There is only one way—the way of truth. And I’m going after it.
So God, please bless my path, and guide my being to be of the best service to You and society.
Thank you for everything.
Endlessly grateful,
Angela