Sometimes, I ask myself, am I really that hard of a person to be with in a relationship?
I don’t think everything has to be as I said, but at the same time, I know I criticize everything and that my focus is always on the worst.
What I am trying to do daily is to anchor in gratitude.
Do hard things, don’t be pussy Angela.
What I am doing is not even hard.
It’s just my emotions that are attached to it.
I get to work every day.
Being healthy is important.
Just wake up and do what you have to.
There is no easy path, and there is no easy way.
The longer I avoid it. The longer the pain will persist.
The resistance will get ticker and my melancholy deeper.
There is no need for any of that. I am the winner. I get to do what I enjoy.
Don’t waste that time and energy. Turn it into something meaningful.
The moment I choose to take the easier path, I start feeling shitty.
Sometimes, I think about how I let myself fall into this trap.
I guess I must constantly expand and go out of my comfort zone so I can live in peace with myself. I am not sure if this is a blessing or a curse.
Stop asking yourself why life is like this.
It will give you what is planned for you.
It’s on you to answer the best you can.
Be a moral and genuine person along the way.
I am anchored in gratefulness and my authenticity.
There is no space for melancholy and self-pettiness.
I should be proud of myself.
To where I get.
And what I achieved.
Not just materialistically but spiritually.
I am proud of myself for expanding my internal capacities for joy, pain, anger…
I am such as wonderful human being; it’s such a shame to think of yourself anything less, doubt, or even worse, shame yourself.
Life is a miracle, so treat one like it is.
Just keep working on internal expansion, emotional healing, trauma reduction…
There is so much to be unpacked to become a better human being.
EACH DAY DO 1 HARD THING.
Listen to your body.
Don’t engage with low-frequency vibrations such as grit, shame, and guilt.
Be proud of yourself for pushing forward and doing hard things.
But it is not the end of the world if you mess up sometimes.
Just keep the chain connected. One step at a time.
I know this all is meant for my exponential growth.
This one was more of a reminder to myself.
What has to be done in order to thrive.
To avoid falling in ambis.
Stay strong, my fellas.
Love you all,
Angela